Rare experience and amazing experience

Well, I've had a bad week. The kids have been throwing tantrums. Grace has been the worst. If this is her then I have a rough 15 years ahead of me which is a little depressing. Anyway, she was up until almost 2 this morning. David stayed up with her until about 1am and then I got up b/c I heard her crying. We were lying on the couch together and I could tell she was really tired so I took her in her room. She was crying and pointing to the rocking chair so I sat down to rock her. Grace has not been one to rock to sleep unlike Andrew. We actually broke the rocking chair with him and bought a new one. So I had the rare but wonderful experience of rocking her to sleep in the middle of the night. I was exhausted and would have much rather been in bed but she looked so angelic sleeping in my arms. I held her for a while thanking God for this rare experience before I put her down for the night.

She got up at 8 am. Only6 hours of sleep and you could tell. She was screaming constantly and throwing herself down and just acting plain awful. Andrew decided to join in and I was losing my patience and fast. I ended up locking myself in my room to get away from the screaming for a few minutes and called my mom who proceeded to tell me that she had been there before with me and blah blah blah. Not sure when she will figure out the appropriate times to bring that up but whatever. In the middle of my meltdown isn't exactly a great time. So I was pretty down thinking that I can never handle having anymore kids and I was really mad at the ones that I do have b/c they were being so terrible. Basically I wasn't seeing anything good in my life. Well that all changed at the post office. Yes, I went in the middle of Grace's meltdown (and mine). I had to mail her invitations today. Well, I get there and there is a man talking to us and Grace is still fussing and wanting what her brother has in his arms. Anyway, we start talking about kids and somehow we get to the fact that we didn't get a lot of sleep last night(with a smile on my face b/c I truly wasn't looking for sympathy) so I'm sorry if she is bothering everyone but I just HAD to get this errand done. Then the not to nice lady behind the counter tells me it is 83 cents to mail these invites. Yes, I said 83 cents each. She said if I would have turned the envelopes the other way and addressed them it would have been regular postage. So I told her I would go home and redo it. Just give me a book of stamps. Mind you, I handmade each envelope b/c the invites wouldn't fit in any that I could buy. The man must have heard the desperation in my voice b/c he threw down 10 dollars and said this is what a grandfather does and he was gone. I think I said thank you and you don't have to but he was gone so fast. That 10 dollars covered all the envelopes I had to send. I started crying b/c I was amazed at what this man did for me. I'm telling you that I KNOW God sent him there to show me good in this world b/c I wasn't seeing it on my own. Isn't it amazing what our God does for us! I was supposed to be at bible study today but was too exhausted to get up and overslept. I don't think I was supposed to go...I believe that I was supposed to be there to receive that kindness and be able to teach my kids about God's kindness right there at the Post Office. Hopefully the not so nice lady behind the counter heard some of my lesson. I hope you all have a blessed and amazing day. Look for the little things that God does for you and around you today. He's everywhere, you just have to look and recognize that it is Him!