Life

Life has been hard.  I know I posted that yesterday and I'm sorry for the dreary and depressing post.  Those of you that already know what has happened might as well stop reading.  No point in dragging yourself through the news again.  I found out Monday that there was a problem with my pregnancy.  Sorry that so many didn't even know I was pregnant and you are reading it here.  I was told it was a blighted ovum and was sent for another ultrasound to confirm.  The other ultrasound was today.  Turns out it's not a blighted ovum but a miscarriage that my body didn't recognize.  There was a baby devoloping that did not continue for some reason and we don't know why.  My doctor is going to get the results of that ultraound this afternoon and then most likely schedule a d & c.  My body has had 4 weeks to recognize this happened and hasn't so most likely it won't.  I'm doing good, actually.  Sad, yes.  I just needed to get today over with so I could focus on what will happen next.  The wait from Monday til today was so long but now that I know for sure, I can focus on what comes next.  My friends have been so supportive and helpful. My director at church coordinated a babysitter for us today so David could go with me and so many have been praying.  Thank you so much for that b/c God has been my strength.  I haven't been the best person to be around but without God holding me up I would be much worse.  Thank you Heather for the encouraging verses...you are always so good at that.  If you ever need hope, call on Heather to find you a verse that will speak to you.  Anyway, life will go on and there are so many people out there with heartache that sometimes I feel silly for being so upset but for now this is my heartache, even if others just don't get it.  Thanks for hanging around here!