Strong Enough

So as I was driving to the store this morning after dropping the kids off at school, I started thinking about the last year.  So many times I find myself focusing on the losses we have had over the last couple of years.  2 lost pregnancies, a lost job, another lost pregnancy.  But this morning it just hit me all of a sudden that we have gained so much since last year at this time and all that we (I) have to be thankful for.  I've been reading the bible with the kids at breakfast and doing short lessons with them about gratitude.  The worksheet is sent home with Andrew from church but it's a little over his head.  Anyway, it has really made me think.  We were so blessed last year by friends and family that made sure we were taken care of.  The girls at church have no idea how much they blessed our family with groceries.  Our family spoiled our kids at Christmas last year because we couldn't.  And of course the best gift was David going to work 2 weeks before Christmas and his first paycheck came in the mail on Christmas Eve.  We weren't expecting it until after the holiday but it came and I cried and thanked God for providing for us as he had for the previous few months.  People were so generous to us last year and I tend to forget how much love surrounded us during that time that would have otherwise been so difficult for us to get though.  David losing his job was a big thing to us, but with so many people praying for us and giving to us, we were so thankful and knew we would come out of that situation with God on our side and with a new job.  David has a good job now with great benefits and a lot of holidays off and vacation.  He is gaining new experience to add to his resume.  We have everything we need and almost everything we want.  I get to sub a few days a month and sometimes several days to bring in extra money.  Sometimes, God just gives me these gentle reminders of just how great he is and how big he is.  He is bigger than my problems.  He is bigger than my loss that I can't get over no matter how hard I try.  He is bigger than the problems in my marriage and my strong willed child.  He is my strength and the only way I will get through each day.  I'm in a different place than I was a year ago but I know in the end I will be stronger in my faith and even closer to God.

I heard a song as I was leaving the store called "Strong Enough" by Matthew West.  Have you heard it?  I'm going to see if I can add it to my playlist at the bottom of my blog because I need to hear it more often to remind myself that I can do all things through Christ.  I can't do it on my own.  I'm not strong enough.  Here is a video with the song.  Hopefully it works.  Don't forget to pause the music on my blog before playing the video, otherwise you will hear 2 different songs.
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